it wasn't meant to be that way. so what happened?
firstly, i got really busy with work. and i had some blog posts lined up to write, which i never quite found time or energy to do in this period. all my tasks were too big to do on any particular evening. and the longer you leave them, the harder it is to start.
secondly, i've been ill. my cycling injuries from the late 80s reinjured in november, and the constant pressure to be at work and at meetings caused a downward spiral which has been hard to recover from. it hasn't been this bad since the late 90s. i've needed a lot of sleep and rest [so evening computer time got curtailed]. i'm beginning to not need the walking stick, but i have to be careful and not overdo it. i hate the stick, but it gets me a seat on public transport, which is essential because the lurching and heaving are deadly to leg injuries. all this happened just as i'd recovered from two years of thyroid illness. it's been depressing and i haven't felt like writing about it. it took ten years to stabilise the injuries the first time, and i can't face that again, so i've been putting more effort into dealing with them at the expense of other things.
and in fact i've been busy with Grace, and i've read loads of books [hence blog posts too big to write!]. and i've been pursuing a project about the british rail corporate identity which has taken me on ebay a lot and now needs a microsite on smallritual.org. and there are the smallritual postcards, soon a second set. so i've been creative enough.
and i looked at restarting this blog on wordpress, but i can't make it work for me. seems all platforms have their demerits, and i can't transfer the content here without losing half of it and spending a huge amount of time for no real advantage as it turns out. i hate the effective lock-in on principle, but i've made this place work for me, and typepad have recently improved various features under competition from wordpress. still, it was good to pause and reevaluate. now i just need to get posting again.